I went out to lunch with a friend (one of D's close friends, actually) yesterday and we ran into D and his mother.  They were seated at the booth behind us in the restaurant, but neither of us realized it until they came over to say hi.

It was awkward.

D's mom asked how I was doing and how long I was in town and gave me a hug.  D stood to the side and didn't bother to say anything.  I swear it was like he didn't even recognize me.

How can someone change their feelings so dramatically?  I don't understand.

The interaction threw me for a bit of a loop.  I spent the rest of the day feeling odd and more nostalgic than ever.

Day before yesterday I randomly hung out with ex-M.  It was in a group of people--I went around to my friend A's birthday get-together and ex-M happened to come by with a friend.  It was surprisingly only a little awkward.  We chatted and caught up with each others' lives.  I am still very very glad we broke up.  But I didn't feel any of the angry or resentful emotions anymore.  I was ambivalent.  I doubt we'll ever really be friends again, simply because we have nothing in common anymore.  But seeing him and talking to him didn't hurt at all.  I felt very mature to realize that I could indeed handle being friends with an ex (something which I have not done before, having had very few exes.  E, M, and D are the only ones and E does not really count as it wasn't really a relationship--I was 14 and he was my next-door neighbor and we kissed a couple times and "dated" as young teens do).  It made me hopeful.  I started feeling that maybe I could even handle being friends with D.  However, after yesterday, it has become clear that I am not ready for that yet.  And even if I were, he obviously has no interest in my friendship.

Oh well.

Going back to parental's house today.  Fun fun fun.  :/