I've changed the desktop background on my computer. It was a picture of my grandmother. I put it there after she passed away last spring. It's nearly been a year since then...changing the background feels like a small act of betrayal. But I think it is time.
Schoolwork schoolwork schoolwork. I feel so burnt out and it's only the third week of the semester. Blaaaahh.
Hung out with a friend last night--the worst type of friend, the kind who eats and pushes you to eat. "You never eat anything," she says. "I eat all the time," I say. I certainly ate last night. Ugh. I think I will do a salt water flush tomorrow while my roommate is at church. (Wish I could have today, but D texted and wanted to see me, so I couldn't.) The taste is so vile. That'll teach me. Maybe next time I'll be stronger.
Okay... confession. I definitely thought I was following your blog- but turns out I wasn't! Oops =)
ReplyDeleteGood for you for moving on. I don't think that's betrayal at all; you can still remember your grandmother without keeping her picture front and center on your computer
Burnout sucks. Sleep is good though, if you can squeeze it in between the work!
Also, don't you hate it when people tell you what to eat? I feel like that shouldn't be allowed once you're over the age of ten
good luck with the salt water flush!
xxx Della
I agree with della, its not betrayal at all... Im sure she'was a decent lady and would understand ;)
ReplyDeleteGood luck with that saltwater flush, im feeling sick just thinking about it!
take care
xo
Once upon a while ago, I came across your blog and thought I clicked "follow." Apparently not. :/
ReplyDeleteFixed that problem, though! :) And I'm glad I found it again. I like the way you write, and I'm loving the "we're in this together" vibe you've got going. I need that right now, more than usual.
I'm feeling burnt out and I've only been in class for a week. Yeah. Fail. Just thought I'd share. :P Hope you're well!
Stay lovely. <3
Food pushers are the worst! I believe that they just want to try and make someone fatter than themselves... Terrible I know, but it's just what I believe.
ReplyDeleteI'm positive that grandma would not feel betrayed, but I completely understand why you feel like it was. I didn't know your grandma, but usually (mine took acception to this rule).. usually they're lovely, and sweet, and really thoughtful... head over heels in love with their grandchildren - so I bet she wouldn't feel betrayed/hurt in the slightest.
xo
I know what you mean. When I put my dads picture in storage a few years after he died, I felt like I was bailing on him.
ReplyDeleteThank you SO much for the comment, it was so nice to hear :]]
stay strong love!
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3