To Do:

• update more
• be more interesting

This will happen soon, I promise.  After finals are done.  It's just crap, this time of the semester.  And don't even get me started on grad applications.  Ugh.  Don't want to think about it.

Tense moment with D the other day...I have Blogger bookmarked and he noticed (he was trying to fix something on my computer) and asked if I blogged.  Ummmm, haha!  "No, I just follow some of my friends' blogs...L has a blog.  She doesn't update it often, though."  Lucky he didn't click on it!

I am dreading dreading dreading the return home for Thanksgiving break.  I am putting it off as long as I can--I'm actually not leaving campus until tomorrow so that I can get home late Wednesday night.  But we have to go to my cousin's on Thursday.  It will be torture.  Pretty much any family interaction in my family is always bad...but this will be especially so.  Definitely not looking forward to it.  And my cousin's family is of the beanpole variety: all model body-types, tall and skinny, but they eat like mad.  They devour food like there is no tomorrow.  Like the crops have all been destroyed by alien crop-circles and we must all take advantage of what we have (which would actually be completely counter-intuitive, because really you should be rationing the scant supplies).  And they notice if you do not do the same.

Going home is definitely a trigger for me.  Even thinking about it is inducing binge-urges.  Do not want.

But I have a plan.  Of sorts.  I have no idea what food will be there, of course.  But my fam is vegan.  So that should help.  I will be as picky as possible, and that is within character for me.  I have tons and tons of work to get done over break, so I will take that with me and just stay busy the entire time.  And they always put me at the kids table (which is completely absurd...I am a legal adult, for fuck's sake!), so it should be fairly easy not to fuck up intake completely.

If I can still be at GW3 upon my return (I am coming back as early as possible too...leaving my hometown on Friday morning, wootwoot!), I will count Thanksgiving as a resounding success.

I wonder if anyone will notice that I have lost weight?

It is so odd.  The scale tells me I am lighter (actually, I am seeing numbers that I have not seen since high school.  This is wonderful) and I can see that I am making progress (and it is amazing!), but I also have so much farther to go.  I still look so gooey.  I still feel so heavy.

Ah well.  Little by little, Salix.  Inch by inch.  Pound by pound.