I know it hasn't been all that long, but I feel it's been ages since I last posted. Every time I sit down to write the words don't come out.
I'm still reading, of course. I love you all too much to give that up.
So I went and saw a psychiatrist yesterday. Cried the entire visit. I don't know what to think about it. I don't know if I want to go back.
She thinks ED comorbid with an anxiety disorder. Gave me 2 weeks worth of Lexapro. Scheduled me another appointment.
D tells me I am awesome and smart and and fun. And that when I am happy I light up the world. He said, "[Salix], you might not be able to move a mountain in one day, but you're just about the only person I know who would keep going until the damn thing moved. And this is no mountain."
What if I want my mountain?
no worries on the long break. if you don't have anything to say you don't have to say anything. just remember to check in cause we miss you. if you want your mountain then keep it. but only if you think it's worth it. just do what's best for you. hang in there, darling.
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p.s. just now noticed your background&i love it.
*hugshugshugs* Comorbid. What a bizarre term.
ReplyDeleteDoes numb count as better? If so I'm better. Green ginger wine mixed with ginger ale is an interesting experience. One I greatly recommend!