Ahhh I am sore.  It feels SO GOOD.  D and I are going running again later today once it cools off a bit.  No interval training today though because of my sore legs.  :/  Hopefully some more ab work.  My abs are not sore from yesterday at all.

We went to my mentor's house for dinner last night.  Ratatouille, lentil garnish, cucumber & mango salad, a bite of pita, and a hard lemonade.  Then coconut rice and mango for dessert.  I ate some of it (a couple bites of rice and 2 mango slices) then offered the rest to D.  Discreetly.  It was tasty and I didn't want to be rude but also I could not make myself eat any more of it.  D gave me the "I'm full" wave then hesitated and leaned in to ask quietly, "Do you need me to?"  I nodded.  He took it and ate it.

Later he told me that he'd felt very aware of me and how I was feeling.  He was pleased with this...I think he sees it as a marker of how close we have gotten, especially on these walks.

Later later we talked about food issues.  "I wish you could see how I see you," he says, tracing my face.  I am more open and honest than I have ever been about my eating before.  He is happy about that and hugs me and cuddles me and tells me I am brave and he loves me.

Sometimes I am afraid D is a hallucination.  Surely he cannot be real.  He is too wonderful.