I am bored of being sad and angsty and depressing.  So I am going to be HAPPY, DAMMIT.

I am HAPPY that it is Friday and that means I do not have to get up at 6 am to go to the office tomorrow even though I am always the first one there so no one knows when I really get there but I still feel guilty if I am late even though I don't actually have any obligation to be in my office at all.

I am HAPPY that I took an awesome shower with lots of warm water today and it made my sore muscles that should not even be sore in the first place because it is not like I have worked out in ages feel better for a little bit. Also, I am pretty sure I don't need better back or shoulder muscles yet those are the only muscles that are sore. I want a back rub.

I am HAPPY that I have an awesome boyfriend who would totally give me a back rub if he were here and who loves me and tells me I am beautiful.  Except I guess I shouldn't get pleasure out of someone else's obvious mental delusions.  Oh well, I am HAPPY about it anyway.

I am HAPPY that I didn't eat anything today and in fact have only had a mini V8 and some Diet Coke with Lime and a whole lot of water.  Which is not good of me, I know, bad Salix, but at least I did not binge again.  So there, stupid binge-mode.  I beat you for today.

I am HAPPY that I remembered to put pants on before going down the hall to the bathroom.  Especially because I am not currently wearing panties.

I am HAPPY that it is nearly midnight and I am still awake and I am very tired but don't feel like sleeping.  I don't know why I am HAPPY about that.  But at least I don't have to get up tomorrow.  I can stay up as late as I want.