I can't get my mind off him. I can't imagine there not being an us.
He said he loves me. So why would he leave?
He has to know that I would be there for him. No matter what. All he has to do is ask me. I want to be there. I know he's got issues; so do I. Maybe he is more broken than I thought. I don't care. I still want him. Just him. Issues and all.
All I need right now is talk to him. But I can't I can't I can't. He said he needs a week and I will not be so selfish as to not give him that.
What will I do if he throws my offer away? What will I do if he throws me away?
sometimes when there's someone I want to talk to really badly, but I know I can't, I write them letters. and then I fold the pages into origami boats and leave them in coffee shops and art galleries or set them free on the lake after I've set them on fire.
ReplyDeleteor I just leave them hidden in the leaves of books around my room.
you'll be ok. you know?
3 more days seems like an eternity, but it's still only 3 days. you will be ok.
and feel free to text me like mad if you need to. I keep a collection of odd photos on my phone which I use to divert the attention of my unsuspecting contacts.
if...and this is not saying that I think it will turn out this way, but if he does decline to continue on, you will feel like fresh barbequed hell, but you will still be ok eventually. because that's what happens in life and in love.
we all do it. and then we dust our broken hearts off and mend them with glue and do it over again.
you'll be ok. have faith in you.
xo