Sitting in a tiny airport at an ungodly early hour.
D helped me get my stuff out of the car. Hugged me. Told me to text him when I get home safe. Said, "I love you."
I said, "Goodbye, D," and walked away. Didn't look back. Didn't cry. Still dry-eyed. All I feel is numb.
It was frightfully dramatic. Perhaps it comes from growing up with the theater, but I am horridly theatrical sometimes. I used to pretend that everything I did was a performance. I may need to resort to that technique for a while. It's easier than to be real. I wonder if I still have the necessary skills?
There was no line at security and I was prepared and checked in early, so I got through in about 5 minutes. Which means I have 40 minutes of downtime before we board.
Too much time to think.
I am so sorry, sweets. What a jerk. I am so glad you're being so strong and didn't let him cry!
ReplyDeleteI think if you cope however you can and work to empower yourself, you may not even want him at the end of your radio silence week! I mean, if you can't trust someone, ditch him! You're worth so much more than a bunch of promises that couldn't be said. YOU are beautiful and strong and lovely. Try to cheer up, sweets. You can do this.
xoxo,
b.
oops!
ReplyDelete*didn't let him SEE you cry.
b. took the words right out my keyboard. That was exactly what I was going to say.
ReplyDeleteFind yourself, dollface <3