I was too proud to beg but right now I would if I thought it would change anything.
Please, D. Please love me. Please want me. Please call me and ask for me back. Please don't leave me. Just please.
I have no one because I told everyone I am okay.
H said something about F and I said she had nothing to do with the break-up. H thinks I'm stupid and naive for thinking that.
I sent her a cute picture just in case. A peace offering, an "it's okay" silent acknowledgement of the possibility/probability that D will go after her next. Just like I did a long time ago when I told the girl that M first dumped me for to go ahead and date him.
It hurt more this time than it did then. Or maybe I just don't remember as well.
Argh...that sounds masochistic; you know you don't need to tell her it's okay with you...it's not really okay. You have the right to be offended, disapproving, disappointed, and resentful if he does go for her next. All those feelings are valid and no one would fault you for them, not even her.
ReplyDeleteAnd you have me, you know? I'm around all the tiiiime. Plus I'm generally up late/awake early. *nods*